Thought demons can't be exorcised...

"Find some one else to taunt", she screamed silently inside her head...
"You let us haunt you...we're here because you can't help being a parasite on us", jeered her thoughts.
"Do I like inflicting pain on myself?
Do I revel in that pinch of a memory that is best forgotten?", she wondered...
And they chant, "Yes you do. Yes you do. Yes you do..."

Jhankar-09 Video!!!

College was actually fun...and if u re on the council ure part of anythng and everythng that happens in college... This video by Student Council 2008-09 in M.O.P.Vaishnav College puts it down nicely...its a nice video...so Enjoii :)

One World One Rupee!! :)

Clarifying the change in my blog title!!!

Why would Pseudo-nerd want to start confessing in doublespeak???
I dunno how many of you know the meaning of the word doublespeak...but here's a picture that nails it quite simply:


Coined by the genius George Orwell, this word is a must-know for all political journalists...
Ask me why? And I'll tell you "Im yet to figure out why...I will at the end of reading this BRILLIANTLY SUPERB book called "1984" by George Orwell".
Why is this book sooooooooo great?
- It is set in the year, 1984...very obvious. But written in the 1950s!!!!
- It has been the inspiration for the World's best advertisement so far, in terms of its effectiveness.
- I think Orwell is a GENIUS...way ahead of his time...a visionary of scaring accuracy!

To everyone who has not read the book I would strongly suggest reading it!!
Though I'm only halfway through the book, I ve been so bowled over by the concept of doublespeak that I had to incorporate it into some part of me...like physically put it down somewhere...and where better than my newly skinned blog??? :))

Pseudo-nerd is me...and this is my blog! :)

Finally I figured it out!!!!!!!!! :))))

Now I can have a new blogskin everyday tooooooooooooooo :DDDD
Am sooooooooo happpeeeeeeeeeeee :))

Ogden Nash....did u have me in mind?

Disclaimer: This post is not meant to offend any dentist or dentist lovers who may or may not read this post. It is a mere expression of my personal feelings of dread when I think abt a dentist.

The most dreaded clique among Doctors must be the Dentists...why am I being bothered? Well, today evening I ve a surgery...no...an EXTRACTION!!!!! Courtesy: My "Wisdom" tooth. :| The past two days have been painful...being pounded by a fierce pain near your ear everytime you swallowed is not a pleasant experience I'd wish on a lot o people...:( It just MAKES u realise how many times in a day the human body needs to swallow.

It is a painfully frequent activity...So I go to the doctor...NOT the dentist!!! He upon examining me tells me there may be some "wear and tear"(!!!!!!!!!!!) in my jaw bone's joints...near the left ear...I may have to take an MRI scan which will suggest if or not I needed an immediate dental plus ENT procedure...in other words...a surgery!!

Freaked out as I was, considering the images that my evil, evil mind brought up for my "benefit", my dad wanted to go for a second opinion. So off we went to the dreaded den...the Dentist's clinic. There, it was proclaimed that my problem was not one of wear and tear but, of a vestigial growth for some weird reason called "wisdom" tooth. I wouldn't need a surgery on my poor (intact :|) jaw.

I would just need a small tooth extraction...Horror welling up in me, I asked the Dentist, "Will I HAVE to get it removed? Cant I jus live with an extra tooth?" He said, "Unless you'd want to keep visiting me every once in 2 months with a pain that will only intensify each time". Here, I would like to quote Ogden Nash:

"And you totter to your feet and think, Well it's over now and after all it was only this once,

And he says come back in three monce.

And this O Fate, is I think the most vicious that thou ever sentest,

That Man has to go continually to the dentist to keep his teeth in good condition

When the chief reason he wants his teeth to be in good condition is so that he won't have to go the dentist "

Dear Ogden Nash, definitely you and me are soul mates when it comes to those DENTISTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :((

Pseudo-nerd doesnt want her mouth to be violated!!! :(((

Random Rants...make them legal...if they aren't already!

I don't know wat am goin to write here....this minute, I'm feeling dizzy...Yes...a few minutes back I experienced something very weird...I couldnt stand straight....I felt I was bein pushed backwards...my toes lifting...supporting that weight leaning back..."What is happening, Appa?", I asked...."You're just weak, ma....lie down for sometime....", said my dad...

As i'm lying down....my eyes involuntarily closed....I felt the light discomfort of a virtual spin..."What was happening?", I asked myself...my disturbed...or rather, perturbed mind conjured up images from the day...spent mostly outside the confines of my daily schedule...at lunch with friends...at Besant Nagar with a best friend...waving good bye to that baby boy now so much part of my days...
Slowly...very slowly it started showing me flashes of a time I didnt want to think about...when I knew what it was to be madly in love...all that hurt so much...then...now...I didnt want to see that face that haunts me till date... I force my eyes open...get myself off that bed...

I sit before my computer...stonily staring at my distorted reflection on that monitor that still hadnt come to life...I chant in my head..."You re over him. You re a new you." The screen burst into colour and sound...waiting for that command from me. Life's like the monitor...a new dimension, cloaked in mundane efforts, every time you turn it on...it waits for your command...making the most of it...giving it your best command (read: shot) is what makes it tick. "Don't give up on giving him up", I told myself as I logged into my blog...
I write here...my thoughts as they assume form in my head...it was dizzy a while back...cleared now.
Weird.
Really.

Pseudo-nerd marvels at the ability of her body to get her thinking! :)

Move on...?

Why did we leave each other?
To trade tears of being together...
With smiles after flashes of memory
Can we hold hands?
We've come so far that
My hands no longer extend
To where you are...
When will I see you again?
I believe in rebirth
Do you?

I luv bad boys behind bars...:D

I lowwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeee my new blogger profile pic!!!!!!!!!!! :DDD
I know I ve literally vanished from the blogger scene....coz am caught up in a whirlwind "romance" with a 9 month old guy...(yeah, I know u re happy for me...:P )
Anyways...a lotta other things have bin happening too...keepin me quite busy...more like on the run...on my toes...watever...:)
Hopefully, things shud settle down in a couple o weeks time...lessseeeeeeeee....:)))
Today, I learnt that my earlier blogger pic was available for the entire world...courtesy, Google image search...:| Wat an idiot I mustave bin...to not realise that...
Thanks, Nikhil! :)

Pseudonerd needs time for herself...quite desperately...:(