Repetition

I said I won't so many times
That it sounded like a simple
Yes.

Men.

Men only look different.

And only so that women know

Who their man is.

Silence

You don't talk.

I don't talk.

But, I get blamed

For the silence

That killed us.

Raped.

My mouth stinks of your violation

With no amount of mint,

Will that stink mellow

I smell it every time I swallow

I remember it with

Every unspoken curse

I am weaker in strength, and

May not protest too well

But you will always be a vandel

Never, the loved one.

She will

She will have an arranged marriage. ONLY.
Who decided?
Jupiter, the Planet.

She will get married by September, 2012 . Definitely.
Why?
Because Jupiter, the Planet will lose interest in her.
It would be a good eight to ten years before He found her interesting again.
But, it wont be love at first sight.

She should control her ego. Should.
Why should she?
Surya, the Sun is already high on her.

Her life has already been decided. Already.
By whom should I say?
The Solar System, of course.

I have a new blog!!!!

http://arunaiyer88.wordpress.com/

I should find out how to change my url into something cooler sounding...this one s just soooo boring!!!!

But, wordpress is very difficult to grasp immediately...but its fun:)

Year 2010

When this year began, I broke one of my longstanding habbits- reading the year's forecast from Yahoo.com. It has been a ritual ever since I laid hands on that Linda Goodman book way back in eight standard. So why did I decide to break this habbit, I wonder...

I felt that I was starting to live my life based on these predictions...though predictions based on sunsigns was never something I believed in when I started out, I realised that sub-conciously, my interest had gaduated from mere characterisation of the different sun signs to predictions for them.

It was upsetting when at times what transpired didn't agree with what Yahoo predicted, and at times eerie....when those two or three lines mirrored what had just happened. (Oh, btw, I read daily predictions at the end of the day to see if Yahoo had got it right...some sort of a game it was, actually)

Soon, I was gobbling up predictions for the entire week and then the entire month as well...

Soon, I spent more time at the Astrology section at any bookstore, reading up stuff I already knew...

Soon, I was investing more money on books predicting the 'Year Ahead for Aries', than I was spending on anything more worth my while...

Soon, I started reading up on which signs were compatible with my sign, Aries, and started building relationships and opinions based on what I read...

Soon, I was justifying the actions of people based on what I had read abt their personalities...

All the above and many more changes in my thought process lead me into expectations that were often too high...I decided that I would live life as it came...day by day without wondering if it would play out the way Yahoo had said it would...

It's liberating in a lot o ways, but scary as well....and tempting as HELL!!!!!

Pseudo-nerd will stop with simply wondering what lies ahead for her in this year...:)